About the Nature of Envy

Dry up you guys

because to flourish you have to dry out and coma

You're dead

because to live you have to die first

Destroy you guys

because if you want independence you must be colonized repeatedly

And as my words above

just like a tree

I want to flourish and be green

I want to live and be free

But before that

I had to dry up and be eaten by thousands of termites

broken and drooping

Can you invite drought and thousands of termites so that I'm dry and weathered?

and

Will you kill and colonize me?

Kill me if you want me to live

Kill me if you think I deserve to live

My soul if you want me to be free

Jajah me if you think I deserve independence

And at the same time

if you find a rebel in me

prepare thousands of oppressive dictators to silence me

like you silencing wiji thukul and other activists

prepare a company of green beans and other state apparatus to kidnap me

like you kidnapped a student in the past

Hurry up

make me dry and weathered before I take root and flourish

Hurry up

kill me before I come out of my mother's womb

my face before I was free

Hurry up

shut me up before I fight

kidnap and get rid of myself before I come to the surface

Hurry up and hurry up

before I did it myself for you ...